Sucks
Not loving this at all. Third day in and I’m a mess. Have cried in the car, teared up while chatting with my boss and am in desperate need of a third coffee at 9:25am.
I dropped him off on Monday. Smiles, gurgles and a general “cool! Kids and new toys to play with. Go ‘way Mama!” demeanor. I visited him during the day. Same sort of thing.
I dropped him off Tuesday. “Hmmm… here again, okay then I’ll deal. Catcha later Mama”. When I visited him through the day he did not want me to go. I organised a bottle for him and sneaked away while he was drinking. I know they say not to sneak away, but you try and leave him when he sees you go.
I dropped him off this am. He hugged me. He clung to me like a monkey. Kim took him. He screamed. I gave him the tube of bonjela and this distracted him; “Hmmm.. what is this? I know it is what I see Mama and Dada hold when they rub my gums with that stuff and that makes me feel better and…” I snuck out of the room while he was twisting and turning the tube in his hands, checking it out fully.
I won’t go and visit today. I don’t think I could handle it. My make up already looks like shite. Dada is picking him up tonight and he’s very lucky to be getting the boy at a good time of day. I’ll have to make sure he has a fruit stick with him for the pick up, cos otherwise you get the yelling on the way home, and that puts you right on the edge.
I feel like I’m walking on eggshells around myself and I’m sure I’m not making it easy on anyone else around me. I’m trying. It’s hard, but I’m trying.
July 8th, 2006 at 6:26 pm
Ah, I know exactly how you feel, I have just left Ben for the first time at childcare, and his trial day lasted for only 3 hours before I relented and had to go and pick him up! Albert will be alright of course, but it doesn’t make it any easier. I am giving myself a long lead time before I go back to work, hopefully to avoid the makeup issues!! Hang in there, and remember that he still loves you!
July 10th, 2006 at 5:55 pm
You poor thing! At the very least you know you only have to go through this once.
Or do you? What’s with the change of blog name?
July 12th, 2006 at 3:25 pm
Not fun is it Sarah? At Wed of the 2nd week, Bert seems to be accepting this a little better. Big smile for one of his carer’s this morn. Only yelled for about 30 seconds when I left, before being distracted by the carers. I’m sure I’ll get over it just as quickly!! :)
And rather astute of you Marika! Yes, it would seem the name of the blog has indeed changed. And this of course means we are no longer contemplating Albert as we have him in our arms already. We are no in contemplation mode for baby #3. If she’s a girl, she will be Kennedy. If he’s a boy, he will be…. well, we are still at contemplation stage, and don’t yet have a boy’s name set in our heads, therefore the blog is now known just as “Contemplating Kennedy”.